Purgeee

So...its really complicated now. I mean I dont know what I'm gonna do and what I really want to do. Thats what life really is anyway, and somehow it really fascinates me with the decisions I'd end up with. Can't believe it myself.

Well, yeah holiday has already started and I know how precious it is for almost all of us. Not sure if anyone already partied over it, but as far as I'm concerned, I haven't, or rather I did party - with at least some entertaining English series. Of course, it hasn't taken me anywhere yet...not when I'm still troubled with the leftovers to deal with -yes yes, as much as I hate to say it, its my project.

Living life sometimes can be so miserable no? its as if we're living a character we're not.

uhmm ....I guess I get a little way sentimental again. opssies.

Wash up time =>

You got what it takes

So, we're almost done with Semester 1 of 3rd Year. Let's get this over with !!!

Yea, in like about 5 more months or so, we'll all be graduating...

What is it like after graduation..??

...so for now, its basically all about accumulating brain juices...for as long as a week!! and A Week only. Trust me, this semester was all devastating to begin with and now all that we can hope for is a good ending to it. We're either going to do it well or trash the whole examinations!

I'm sure I stated it pretty well.

Can I even work off limit?

*sigh*

I had a blunt conversation with a cousin another day and he was saying, " hey, what if the world ends in 2012?".

I was so upset by it then and said, " hurrrr, I lived for 22 years......and THAT IT?!?"

That was a very abrupt answer in my head then. lolx

Seeing things around me made me realized that I have not attain enough fulfillments in life and probably never once tried exerting myself to the extent where I can reap total satisfaction from. Life is short and brief....but that is not how I wanted to end it. If we can make the most out of our every day life, then there won't be one day that we'll live in regret.

How unfortunately, we see things in another perspective and all we're aware of are how trivial things get to be. Are we loved? Do we love?

When it all should ends, do these things weigh anything more than a dust....??

I can't be sure but we are living in a cold and ravenous world and somehow, we may even lose sight of the gleaming hope in midst of living.

But let's not lose it ...

ぼくは愛していた

Its a wonder how music has spurred my motivation and given me strong drive to move on - and as of now, I will be giving it all for my finals.

Yashiee!!!!

Post CNY

ooohh...I'm starting to lose my sight.

Happy New Year, Folks!!~ Yes we've hopped into the Year of Rabbit.

Wishing everyone Good Health and Prosperity!

I had great times with all my relatives and friends, really, and at least I tried to make the most out of the extremely short festive holiday. This is probably the most uneasy Chinese New Year that I've ever been through. Don't mind me...but I wasn't fully absorbed into the mood and worst of all, there is the investigation report that I had to finish before the Holiday ends (which spoils all the atmosphere!) ARSE!!!

I'm glad everything stays same, the tradition - the reunion - the faces - the warmth but not the diminishing amount of ang pows though. ;D (just jokin!) afterall its not how much money we receive during the festive, rather, its how long we get to be with each other. Look !!! CNY had just breezed through like nothing has ever happened!

Bleah....

So much for the good food and entertainments!

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Mummy never fails to remind me to eat properly...

I mean, I don't cook myself and usually would end to turn a blind eye to stuff like this because I always thought nobody would care, neither would I. Now that I've gotten a little health-conscious, I guess its time to take it more seriously.

So for dinner... this is what I had =D

The best Garden Salad!!

The best Cherry Tomatoes..!! They ooze the best juice ever lolx.

...and I got this as an extra. Love them to bits. Gonna have them some time tomorrow though. =D

Hmm, I should get Caesar Salad next, for a change!!!

It's a lovely night tonight...

Gotta go~

Yet another compilation!

So, that's it.

After 3 weeks' long of continuous work drives and brain-cracking moments, today marks the glorious day of all. lolx. At least, I'm through with the few most baffling assignments and trust me, its really strenuous to live up to the "God-like" kind of expectations and worst, to burn the mid night oils almost every day.

Now, I'm not at all a committed person to begin with, much less devoted to assignments. At time like this, my mother really does give up on me and ever mention that I am the species that exist to procrastinate. I didn't take it too hard but she may be true. =) Somehow, it has evidently been proven that my productivity level is at its highest when stress comes haunting. Although, I wouldn't guarantee the same level of quality but this is just how I work.........after proficiently working out on my schedule ahead of time just so I won't screw my work up then - time management it is. It's always the hardest to impose the starting point. It is just like the old saying, "when there is a will there is a way". I strongly believe so.

Anyway, there goes all 4 assignments in a week and 2 left. There is just this sensational rush in within which comes after the fulfillment of obligations.

What a joy~

It's weekend soon and Happy Thaipusam to those who celebrate the festive.

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People nowadays are way too complex. They pour in too much of feelings and turn paranoia and uptight - much fragile to unintentional judgement. I, personally have low tolerance for such individuals. However, I wouldn't label them as immature, which has no whatsoever relation to my topic, rather...they are the cause to the act of stupidity.

How many times in your life do you find yourself trying immeasurably to explain yourself to a person who is NO freaking way, living in the same planet as you! They get upset so easily over silly statements and communicating with them is practically pointless that any further contact will cause you dehydration in the body and worst - deprivation of oxygen. Just so you see.

I am not saying that it is wrong to be defensive at times. However, over-defensive is aggravating and that is how stupidity comes about... and believe me that the next thing you witness may just be another suicidal case.

Please, think and act humanely...

well, at least human like me reap satisfaction from mere cheesecakes. ;)

Reminiscing old songs...

Goodbye!!

お誕生日おめでとうね~~ 葵さん !!~~!!!

What's best for myself?

I recently received a reply from my Aunt in Shanghai after initiating an email regarding my progress at Uni thus far...

Ever since daddy left us about a year ago, his elder brother/my uncle decided to bear the responsibility as a financial support to my family, crucially yet to us, who are still struggling in the higher institutions. We are ever so grateful that both of them have been unceasingly caring for us and supporting us so much in replace of my dad. As they are prepared to plough money into our future, they've given my brother and I better options choose from.

...yes, as I was talking about the email I received...

This is the exact cropped content from the mail and which is a congratulatory mail from my Aunt in reply to my email that has the Academic Report attached.

and..My concern now would be - am I to live up to their expectations?

In fact, I'm rather crossed now knowing that if I were to go any further than where I am now, I could be very much indebted to them and no one knows where these all will take me to. I didn't want to sound mean, but I really shouldn't be taking advantage of their graciousness and generosity so much.

but if it all should happen, I could be flying off end of the year...!

If only daddy's around...

This is really troubling but at the moment, I couldn't be much bothered about it just yet. Final Year has been excruciating so far, and I wonder how is it going to be like few more months down the road. Guess its not so exciting after all........ I have better yet learn to cope with it before its too late.

I need my soulmate.

It has been 5 years and every time I talk about him...

it's like knowing someone new and I gets flustered all the way.

I knew he is the one who would listen to me, who would understand me most.

"You're the one who can make me feel comfortable at all time."

Maybe taking all is a little contempting, Giving is a virtue too.

Gomen ne.

My flu is really going from bad to worse.

-turning in for the night-

Goodnight

*lights off*

2 Weeks of Nuts

Vanity is Sinful

Self-Love is Beautiful

eyebags detected!!

Right...

you may roughly understand that my current hair is in a total mess. True, they're pretty much destroyed and oh hmm, I seriously have NO idea on how I should work on it. I'd most likely leave it the way it is right now and we'll see what I can do as they grow. lolx. Almost certain that I will chop most of them off. kkk. *distressed*

Anyway, my two-week's break is quickly coming to an end and I can't be sure that I've been productive within the time. As far as assignments are concern, I am never too keen and even this time I couldn't really cope well. I was seen starring blankly at my laptop screen all the time while searching for whatever it is that I was searching for and HELL that was torture!! Uhh, at least you could congratulate me though that I still had both my eyes wide open then.

You see, I could barely stay up late at night for further commitment(lol) as my physical condition is getting worse each day. No, no I'm not sick - it's just that when I happened to come down with flu, I am less spiritually conscious, thus I get sleepy way ahead of my sleeping time. Fortunately for me, this doesn't happen all the time.

I hope everyone else is doing good though. Can't wait to see them all!

Penang trip must have been so much fun~ Grrrurrr!!

While I finding time for myself, here's what I found. Pretty interesting Vlog she's got there and in case you wonder why is she speaking that way, youtube - Peter Chao. ;)

OR

if watching this vlog makes you feel itchy, hop HERE ~

Who knows....

lalalalala....

Now, now, I better make time for some cheesecake session this weekend. =D

Better Late than Never

Sunny day eh.

...these drastic changes of weathers are sure sinful. I'm exposed to many of those who have fell sick. Even Bryan (one of the twin babies) are suspected to be infected with rotavirus - My heart sores looking at him feeling so feeble and no more of his unwavering lively smiles. Hopefully the medicines cure him in no time! I'm strong, no worries - I drink lots and lots of water thats definite and eat plenty of fruits almost everyday, you people should too!

Take care... and...

I'd recommend - boiled beetroot - they're really good!

...and to my darling coursemates, Please do not over-exert yourselves !!! you people are creepy and sure freaks me out sometimes =___=;; We'll all do well this term and ALL GRADUATE for good ^^ !! You have my words.

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I've always wondered why at this point of my age, people tend to question my availability so much as if I'm such a bother to others being single. They may meant well but what's with the response like - " I DONT believe that...!!" =_= am I so pitiful anyway?

I've an individual whom I like and admire and that is about it !! ...

it's not an unrequited love so drop that thought !!

Thing like this is probably out of my control and I think I'm totally fine with how I brought myself about so far. So you know, I never like to be clung on, not ever a clingy type of person. This is life... my life, at least.

Personally, I don't dissent people who are in love or heads over heels over someone, its just that I'm not like that? maybe not now??

Peaacee......

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I'm counting your days.

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!

(This is probably a little late, but better late than never!!)

I'm off to MAMA!!!