Belated Christmas YO.

Its pretty chilly these days, is it not? Why... yes for me.

I've been spending some quality time alone, seriously, with my grandmother for the past 2 days I believe. I just thought life has really taken its toll on her so much and that I should spend time with her whenever I could. It really pained my heart to see at those deep wrinkles on her face and both her arms and that she coughs more than ever now and that she depended so much on her drugs daily. If only time could halt but again, she is a strong woman at her age and I am so proud of her.

Well, it's not like she's thaat weak that I have to post this... but recently I just realized that my grandmother is one that is closest to me and I need to cherish this kinship and show affection to her while she's still with me.

Emotional eh...hah.

Ah so the Legendary Dome was pawned on 26th heh and yep, pretty much expected. Really, it's a shame that I wasn't there or I would have yelled my lungs out ;) yes I would. I believe it was also ultra-emotional upon the ending and right before the boys' signature-jump!! Bless them all and their career ahead please, I'd love to see them grow and alleviate higher and to better.

When the curtains draw, its time for a new journey!!

Nice outfits yo!! I liked those very much ... =)

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Okay I need some serious time-management and plenty time for self reflection. This is real business that we're talking about damn. I can never get a hold of myself and what's worst is that I'm losing time for much more important things that I need to do.

... when I look back then, I hadn't really work anything out, had I?

... Okay, whatever it is - abc or cba - I will do them all or never do them at all.

*slapface*

Oh, wait... I didn't have christmas post, did I? Blame the sucky celebration around - rather unappealing. Even the king fly kites eh? If you understand what I mean^^

Anyway... here it goes!

Merry Belated Christmas, readers!!!

Also, congratulations to the Malaysia's football team for bidding the first triumph in the AFF Suzuki Cup Tournament. So, there's nothing much except for an official-declared public holiday tomorrow though, THANKS.

I gotta RUN!!

只不过。

在心里面的某一个角落，感觉有点低落。

一直以为自己没那么容易被受影响，

却不知不觉的还是被打倒了。

有时候，一些事情不由得我来控制。。。

而可笑的是， 我每一次都为了这些事情搞得团团转。

但我很清楚很多时候，现实，是会令人感得矛盾的。

想要给自己做个决定都好想必须先要跟自己打仗 ！！

たかちゃん、聞くえことできますか？＾.＾

ぼくはさびしいよ！ずっとあなたのかんがえていたよ

真的哦！

圣诞节又要到了！

Merry Merry Merry~

Plain boredom

Here I am again. I'm always stuck up with blogging at the most awkward time of all. To live up to my profile, I'm going to do my reporting like always. Things have been going well for me, and believe me that when I say well, I meant - a little too well. Guess I did lose grip on myself.

I am going penniless really, for one... of course, from the extensive outings all through the previous month like mad~ Next on, I'll need some more cash for personal use. I'll see what I can do - like start saving sounds like a good idea for me. With that, I'll have plenty of time to spend at home and it seemed like its the perfect timing for to ground myself at my own work station also...for good.

Just lovely.

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Some days ago, I read on something really tragic. In this world there is black and there is also white. In between the two distinct colours, there lay a grey area. God knows what lies in it, but from how I see it, a certain number of people inhabited it. These people are known as the black sheep of the society. These are the people who can neither see the black nor the white.

Love as simple as it looks, contains innumerous meanings. I may not be in the position to judge or scrutinize any single action taken, but yet, a life is a life, no one but the creator has the very right to withdraw it.

I am cold and ruthless like how some people may came to know me as. I never had love properly defined and eventually lost my way in it. But look, for someone who is so much in love, sank so deep in it and was living in such agony because of it, falling in love is still as bad as playing with fire. There're exactly so many ways to love and be loved and even at times, love itself is total unnecessary.

爱情可以很伟大，同时也可以很残酷．

自寻绝路，哪有何苦呢？

这世界以不会为你的死而改变，更不会为你的死而停止转动．

但你所有身边的人，包括她，会为了你的决定而感的惭愧与痛苦．

难道这就是你所谓的爱吗？

安息吧．

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I regretted going to the hair saloon so much today.

*sigh*

Disastrous.

Anyway, have a great day!

Home sick

Oh I flipped the calendar over and its December already :)

and how silly of me to be still scratching #31 on the parking coupon for month November yesterday, X.x

I'd consider myself already moving on the right track with the fittingly mindset xD. It's inevitably torturing to be entirely mindful with serious deals here at all. At certain points of time, I pick a spot and choose to rot!

Anyway, it has been the longest stay thus far without heading back home for 3 weeks. It wasn't so bad even though I was very much feeling melancholic over the weekends ~.~ So you see, I went on lengthy phone calls with my family, on top of which, my grandmother was still rather sick then. A week after, she is all better and I'm even closer to the day that I will be going back home! Yea, it's like ... just tomorrow ;)

Besides, I'm hell-missing the food too!! Not to mention, I will be also meeting friends who are on a month's break. Thank God that I'll be returning only on Wednesday - which means, I'll have ample time to spare for my friends and family. Okay, I am still aware (very very much do) that I have papers to finish and PSF to be submitted latest by Monday. how annoying...

Along the time, who wouldn't miss the baby twins??

uhhuh!! They're growing so quickly :D

and I can't wait to see them !! ~

Have they even been thinking of me at all, I wonder ;)

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Recently, I made myself to ponder.

Ponder on all possibilities of life and if I've been making right choices right from the start. Sometimes, it happened that a shrewd business person was there to share his/her wise thoughts, it made me perceive how dense I was and that each and every real-life intellect is worth more than what a book can illustrate. I could still possibly be making the best out of the worst choice that I ended up with.

obtuse or not?

Enjoys~~

Lolly Friday Evening =)

I probably overdid a little this time. x|

God knows what went down my throat yesterday night/dawn, but it went burning hot and oh did I smell heavy stench of alcohol at the after-party. It was pretty awesome night despite the overwhelming crowd I witnessed at The Opera Nightclub @ Sunway. =) Bless me lol, that was my virgin visit to a KL nightclub - pure wild, rocking gorgeous nightclub.

Let's not get into the drinking part anyway (not a good sight rather) ... I am not very good at handling toasts and the after effect of drinking. Bleah~ Not hangover though...! Did I mention I still have an extra bottle of Heineken with me??? It doesn't belong to me though HaHa....

But then again, Happy [Belated] 28th Birthday Uncle Yeap!! lolz

He's such an amazing friend and hopefully he had a blastful time of the year~~ We're afterall grownups. Such event is so inevitable EH? *giggles*

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Back at home, Grandma isn't feeling too good. I got so deranged at the news that she's going back to the doc after just being discharged from the hospital the day before. I'm praying hard that she'll be fine so soon. oh pLEAse!! I'm anticipating piece of good news to cure my edginess because I can't do much at all.

婆婆，我好想吃你煮的黑猪肉! 你快点好起来!

hehehe..;) I'm such a miserable grand daughter....x|

I can't wait to go back home again~ The swelling on my left foot just won't go away! T__T Obviously I'm in need my doses of mummy-love and popo-love. o'man I love them too!

Speaking of which, I have my substitution flow of love...coming from the boys ;) Well its still pretty early to reveal this, nevertheless, every HERESY earthlings seem to be in perfect rapture after getting proper eyes/ears job from the GazettE new ballad PV!!

Glad that PLEDGE PV is finally on youtube way ahead of time and the boys sure have been spreading love like they're on FIRE!! *loves* Well, you'd probably find couples of PLEDGE full PV [HQ] on youtube at the moment, then again, no point embedding them from there now at the risk of having the video taken down at the end of the day, violating the privacy right, as usual.

Endoh-sama on the other hand, had the best remedy against it!

Yo Yo Yo!

Let's get back to work~ hunt down more JOURNALS!

Shouping deh~

~ 说再见 才发现再也见不到 ~ 能不能就这样忍着痛淚不掉 ~

~ 说好陪我到老 ~ 永恒往哪里找 ~

~ 再次拥抱 一分一秒都好 ~

Enjoyed my shopping-spree today after so long :) Total satisfaction.

The next thing I may end up doing is chopping off my hair for good.

Still considering though.

I hope it doesn't take long.

*yawn*

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Love my new sweater to max!!

bought it for only RM12.

I missed you daddy.

Are you doing great?

:)

Swung - over

不知道自己有能撑多少，拼多久。

今天却又下雨了。。。

这场雨提醒了我 是时候把一切都放下了,

并且也告诉我，下了雨后，还是会天晴，

层层云锦把天空点缀得更美丽。

这地球是不会为我一个人而暂停的。

僕は本当に疲れているよ！本当は大惨事を感じます.

あなたは他のすべてが崩壊しているように思われるとき私にあなたの肩を貸してくれるためにそこに行くでしょうか？

It's been a tough week. This weekend break is not making me feel any better. To make thing worse, it started to rain when I least expect it to. I have nothing against rainy season, though, it always brings out the ugly side of me. Not to mention, bad hair day persistently falls on rainy day too!

Okay ...

it's not like some Volcano erupted in Malaysia, somehow I just don't feel right.

I don't think I'm in the right state to blog either.

Probably just venting my uneasiness.

I missed you.

.約束.