Yet another compilation!

So, that's it.

After 3 weeks' long of continuous work drives and brain-cracking moments, today marks the glorious day of all. lolx. At least, I'm through with the few most baffling assignments and trust me, its really strenuous to live up to the "God-like" kind of expectations and worst, to burn the mid night oils almost every day.

Now, I'm not at all a committed person to begin with, much less devoted to assignments. At time like this, my mother really does give up on me and ever mention that I am the species that exist to procrastinate. I didn't take it too hard but she may be true. =) Somehow, it has evidently been proven that my productivity level is at its highest when stress comes haunting. Although, I wouldn't guarantee the same level of quality but this is just how I work.........after proficiently working out on my schedule ahead of time just so I won't screw my work up then - time management it is. It's always the hardest to impose the starting point. It is just like the old saying, "when there is a will there is a way". I strongly believe so.

Anyway, there goes all 4 assignments in a week and 2 left. There is just this sensational rush in within which comes after the fulfillment of obligations.

What a joy~

It's weekend soon and Happy Thaipusam to those who celebrate the festive.

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People nowadays are way too complex. They pour in too much of feelings and turn paranoia and uptight - much fragile to unintentional judgement. I, personally have low tolerance for such individuals. However, I wouldn't label them as immature, which has no whatsoever relation to my topic, rather...they are the cause to the act of stupidity.

How many times in your life do you find yourself trying immeasurably to explain yourself to a person who is NO freaking way, living in the same planet as you! They get upset so easily over silly statements and communicating with them is practically pointless that any further contact will cause you dehydration in the body and worst - deprivation of oxygen. Just so you see.

I am not saying that it is wrong to be defensive at times. However, over-defensive is aggravating and that is how stupidity comes about... and believe me that the next thing you witness may just be another suicidal case.

Please, think and act humanely...

well, at least human like me reap satisfaction from mere cheesecakes. ;)

Reminiscing old songs...

Goodbye!!

お誕生日おめでとうね~~ 葵さん !!~~!!!

What's best for myself?

I recently received a reply from my Aunt in Shanghai after initiating an email regarding my progress at Uni thus far...

Ever since daddy left us about a year ago, his elder brother/my uncle decided to bear the responsibility as a financial support to my family, crucially yet to us, who are still struggling in the higher institutions. We are ever so grateful that both of them have been unceasingly caring for us and supporting us so much in replace of my dad. As they are prepared to plough money into our future, they've given my brother and I better options choose from.

...yes, as I was talking about the email I received...

This is the exact cropped content from the mail and which is a congratulatory mail from my Aunt in reply to my email that has the Academic Report attached.

and..My concern now would be - am I to live up to their expectations?

In fact, I'm rather crossed now knowing that if I were to go any further than where I am now, I could be very much indebted to them and no one knows where these all will take me to. I didn't want to sound mean, but I really shouldn't be taking advantage of their graciousness and generosity so much.

but if it all should happen, I could be flying off end of the year...!

If only daddy's around...

This is really troubling but at the moment, I couldn't be much bothered about it just yet. Final Year has been excruciating so far, and I wonder how is it going to be like few more months down the road. Guess its not so exciting after all........ I have better yet learn to cope with it before its too late.

I need my soulmate.

It has been 5 years and every time I talk about him...

it's like knowing someone new and I gets flustered all the way.

I knew he is the one who would listen to me, who would understand me most.

"You're the one who can make me feel comfortable at all time."

Maybe taking all is a little contempting, Giving is a virtue too.

Gomen ne.

My flu is really going from bad to worse.

-turning in for the night-

Goodnight

*lights off*

2 Weeks of Nuts

Vanity is Sinful

Self-Love is Beautiful

eyebags detected!!

Right...

you may roughly understand that my current hair is in a total mess. True, they're pretty much destroyed and oh hmm, I seriously have NO idea on how I should work on it. I'd most likely leave it the way it is right now and we'll see what I can do as they grow. lolx. Almost certain that I will chop most of them off. kkk. *distressed*

Anyway, my two-week's break is quickly coming to an end and I can't be sure that I've been productive within the time. As far as assignments are concern, I am never too keen and even this time I couldn't really cope well. I was seen starring blankly at my laptop screen all the time while searching for whatever it is that I was searching for and HELL that was torture!! Uhh, at least you could congratulate me though that I still had both my eyes wide open then.

You see, I could barely stay up late at night for further commitment(lol) as my physical condition is getting worse each day. No, no I'm not sick - it's just that when I happened to come down with flu, I am less spiritually conscious, thus I get sleepy way ahead of my sleeping time. Fortunately for me, this doesn't happen all the time.

I hope everyone else is doing good though. Can't wait to see them all!

Penang trip must have been so much fun~ Grrrurrr!!

While I finding time for myself, here's what I found. Pretty interesting Vlog she's got there and in case you wonder why is she speaking that way, youtube - Peter Chao. ;)

OR

if watching this vlog makes you feel itchy, hop HERE ~

Who knows....

lalalalala....

Now, now, I better make time for some cheesecake session this weekend. =D

Better Late than Never

Sunny day eh.

...these drastic changes of weathers are sure sinful. I'm exposed to many of those who have fell sick. Even Bryan (one of the twin babies) are suspected to be infected with rotavirus - My heart sores looking at him feeling so feeble and no more of his unwavering lively smiles. Hopefully the medicines cure him in no time! I'm strong, no worries - I drink lots and lots of water thats definite and eat plenty of fruits almost everyday, you people should too!

Take care... and...

I'd recommend - boiled beetroot - they're really good!

...and to my darling coursemates, Please do not over-exert yourselves !!! you people are creepy and sure freaks me out sometimes =___=;; We'll all do well this term and ALL GRADUATE for good ^^ !! You have my words.

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I've always wondered why at this point of my age, people tend to question my availability so much as if I'm such a bother to others being single. They may meant well but what's with the response like - " I DONT believe that...!!" =_= am I so pitiful anyway?

I've an individual whom I like and admire and that is about it !! ...

it's not an unrequited love so drop that thought !!

Thing like this is probably out of my control and I think I'm totally fine with how I brought myself about so far. So you know, I never like to be clung on, not ever a clingy type of person. This is life... my life, at least.

Personally, I don't dissent people who are in love or heads over heels over someone, its just that I'm not like that? maybe not now??

Peaacee......

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I'm counting your days.

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!!!!

(This is probably a little late, but better late than never!!)

I'm off to MAMA!!!

Belated Christmas YO.

Its pretty chilly these days, is it not? Why... yes for me.

I've been spending some quality time alone, seriously, with my grandmother for the past 2 days I believe. I just thought life has really taken its toll on her so much and that I should spend time with her whenever I could. It really pained my heart to see at those deep wrinkles on her face and both her arms and that she coughs more than ever now and that she depended so much on her drugs daily. If only time could halt but again, she is a strong woman at her age and I am so proud of her.

Well, it's not like she's thaat weak that I have to post this... but recently I just realized that my grandmother is one that is closest to me and I need to cherish this kinship and show affection to her while she's still with me.

Emotional eh...hah.

Ah so the Legendary Dome was pawned on 26th heh and yep, pretty much expected. Really, it's a shame that I wasn't there or I would have yelled my lungs out ;) yes I would. I believe it was also ultra-emotional upon the ending and right before the boys' signature-jump!! Bless them all and their career ahead please, I'd love to see them grow and alleviate higher and to better.

When the curtains draw, its time for a new journey!!

Nice outfits yo!! I liked those very much ... =)

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Okay I need some serious time-management and plenty time for self reflection. This is real business that we're talking about damn. I can never get a hold of myself and what's worst is that I'm losing time for much more important things that I need to do.

... when I look back then, I hadn't really work anything out, had I?

... Okay, whatever it is - abc or cba - I will do them all or never do them at all.

*slapface*

Oh, wait... I didn't have christmas post, did I? Blame the sucky celebration around - rather unappealing. Even the king fly kites eh? If you understand what I mean^^

Anyway... here it goes!

Merry Belated Christmas, readers!!!

Also, congratulations to the Malaysia's football team for bidding the first triumph in the AFF Suzuki Cup Tournament. So, there's nothing much except for an official-declared public holiday tomorrow though, THANKS.

I gotta RUN!!

只不过。

在心里面的某一个角落，感觉有点低落。

一直以为自己没那么容易被受影响，

却不知不觉的还是被打倒了。

有时候，一些事情不由得我来控制。。。

而可笑的是， 我每一次都为了这些事情搞得团团转。

但我很清楚很多时候，现实，是会令人感得矛盾的。

想要给自己做个决定都好想必须先要跟自己打仗 ！！

たかちゃん、聞くえことできますか？＾.＾

ぼくはさびしいよ！ずっとあなたのかんがえていたよ

真的哦！

圣诞节又要到了！

Merry Merry Merry~

Plain boredom

Here I am again. I'm always stuck up with blogging at the most awkward time of all. To live up to my profile, I'm going to do my reporting like always. Things have been going well for me, and believe me that when I say well, I meant - a little too well. Guess I did lose grip on myself.

I am going penniless really, for one... of course, from the extensive outings all through the previous month like mad~ Next on, I'll need some more cash for personal use. I'll see what I can do - like start saving sounds like a good idea for me. With that, I'll have plenty of time to spend at home and it seemed like its the perfect timing for to ground myself at my own work station also...for good.

Just lovely.

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Some days ago, I read on something really tragic. In this world there is black and there is also white. In between the two distinct colours, there lay a grey area. God knows what lies in it, but from how I see it, a certain number of people inhabited it. These people are known as the black sheep of the society. These are the people who can neither see the black nor the white.

Love as simple as it looks, contains innumerous meanings. I may not be in the position to judge or scrutinize any single action taken, but yet, a life is a life, no one but the creator has the very right to withdraw it.

I am cold and ruthless like how some people may came to know me as. I never had love properly defined and eventually lost my way in it. But look, for someone who is so much in love, sank so deep in it and was living in such agony because of it, falling in love is still as bad as playing with fire. There're exactly so many ways to love and be loved and even at times, love itself is total unnecessary.

爱情可以很伟大，同时也可以很残酷．

自寻绝路，哪有何苦呢？

这世界以不会为你的死而改变，更不会为你的死而停止转动．

但你所有身边的人，包括她，会为了你的决定而感的惭愧与痛苦．

难道这就是你所谓的爱吗？

安息吧．

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I regretted going to the hair saloon so much today.

*sigh*

Disastrous.

Anyway, have a great day!